Time Well Spent

I have never been good at keeping in touch with people. As a teenager I would go to camp or on missions trips, meet wonderful friends, and vow to keep in touch with them forever. A few years later, and I have no idea where they are or what is going on in their lives. Granted, Facebook keeps me updated, but it's not the same. I hate it actually. I will typically refrain from even have a conversation with anyone I know I won't see again or have a deeper relationship with.

I would rather sit alone than meet new people, especially here at school, right now... because in a few months I will be leaving and I would rather not start friendships now because I have a feeling deep in the pit of my stomach that by this fall I won't hear from them again.

Recently, I have not called some of my friends in a long time even though I know we need to hang out soon. They only live like 15-20 minutes away, but I can never seem to make time... well, I have time, but most of that down time is spent sleeping, doing homework, or just recharging by being alone. I hate this...

I wish life wasn't so chaotic. And I know it will only get worse as I leave college and enter the working world. I wish I could slow down and enjoy life more. I wish I just had less things to do. I downsized a lot this year from previous years, but I still feel so busy. And now my busyness is slowing tearing apart my relationships. Grrrr...

Lord help me realize that relationships are more important that classes and essays. Help me put my own comfort aside to spend time with those who need my presence and love.